I'm not good at this

Today I sat down to make the sympathy card for my friend who lost her infant son on Thursday; it was one of the hardest cards I've ever had to make. My cards are almost all bright and cheerful - I love whimsical stamps and happy themes. So, not only was it out of my style, but I had to choke back tears while making it.

I didn't really know Taeden very well - I have held him several times, and oohed and ahhed over his adorable pictures with his proud Grandma and Grandpa. I'm not even really close to the mama - she's more of an acquaintance, but we see each other often at her parents' house. She lived there when my daughter was there, so Chloe knows her better than I do.

But, I just feel so terribly awful for her. I have very close friends who have been through pregnancy and infant loss. I have friends who have lost adoptions that were moments from finalization. And I have been through more than one pregnancy loss. So at moments like these all that raw emotion spills out.

It's easy to push it down - life goes on and to heal you have to move forward. But every now and then I feel a deep sadness and realize that it's around the time of one of my own losses. Due dates never realized...

And so I sat down this afternoon to make this card. I hope that its recipient does find the peace and comfort she needs right now.



The stamp is by Stampabilities, card stock and half pearls are by SU!, the cord is from my craft stash, and I used my SU! Big Shot to cut with my Nestabilities and emboss with my Cuttlebug folder.